artisticmisery

graduation!!!!

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 02:10:15 GMT

im graduating from college!!!!!!!!!

im gonna drown my self in sorrow today

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 00:40:51 GMT

well today started off depressing i had a dream that ended with me seeing the girl of my dreams in it waving saying hi and her doing the same then went to work from 7 to 2 fine by me i didnt mind being at work oddly enough despite that i hate my job with a passion the depressing part is she is a girl i was with and cant forget about i mean despite my academic and other accomplishments in life (im graduating college in less than 2 months from now ill be done) im also liscensed as a personal trainer quite handsome when i try to be(osnel and christie have seen me when im trying and ive impressed both oddly enough) and a very skillful vocalist who if had a band would have everything i wanted maybe when im done i can go to new york and play with my friends band get a few girls and forget victoria and everything else in my life that dragged me down in the mud that is my sorrow everything i touch seems to fall apart and my friends dont talk to me anymore for the most part
ive tried everything to forget my past but it wont go away i feel forced to relive it each day like im running away from something that can destroy me but wants just to torment me for those that know me well enough they can see i put up a facade of ignorance and also being happy with my life anyways im gonna go off to write misrable songs about killing pain death murder and suicide much love to all the peeps who still care to mention me or be my friend or whatever

well i feel good

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 03:48:51 GMT

went to the gym today also deposited almost 300 dollars in checking account getting closer to being able to get a car:) graduation is in like 2 monthsi relized some giel tried to get me to go out with her but her friends said shes a drunk(bad expeiences with them and i ran from this girl)she was cute but i dont want to go out with a girl like that(anyone who knows me knows i never liked the role of judge nor took it up) i relaized b/c of past instances not that ill judge people for that just dont want to deal with the drama went to sawgrass mall it was good even though no mall rats i knew were there it was good to be a mall rat again:)wet home wentto mall where im banned and ran like hell went home wrote for school and am going to bed

the sound of happy mice

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 01:53:54 GMT

met a girl thursday cant remember her name think she is cool b/c shes into video games dungeons and dragons and is a graduate student at nova university studying therapy of some sort friday went out got loaded off my butt(wanted to invite claudia but she never returned my calls) after nice lunch with family must have done over 200 pushups that day went to work at 7 today and yesterday went out with friends got more drunk and am looking forward to finishing a book i am reading called the grapes of wrath im enjoying school more and also my work which i will be changing to personal trainer soon yay i love life*feels like singing*

hi its mouse

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 05:46:27 GMT

well i feel good today i went to school to take an exam got really hungry during the exam( it was 3 hours long almost)went to go work out missed the bus and went online at schoolwent home talked to jasmine wound up not going to jons place but went to the gym again played basketball for the first time in a long time played a good game and won despite being a short white boy made new friends went back to wieght lifting then went to wal mart with a friend got tuna for post workout snack then decided i need to start socializing more giving up being shy for once and living to my potential

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 15:53:32 GMT

well today sucks i woke up and had fast fod for breakfast(yuck) then went to school only to miss class and screw up at the gym ahhhhh so i was like screw this i knew i shouldnt have gotten out of bedor maybe i should have just stayed in coral springs today anyways gotta call squirrel to set up a demo and just to chill b/c i havent seen him in forever well i gotta go to class so later anyone who finds this amusing